You know, despite my terrible past to make decisions in my life based upon what I want, and not consulting anyone else.... especially the Lord.... I have really tried hard lately to change that bad habit. It has gotten me nowhere. So I have been trying REALLY hard to make decisions WITH the Lord. I feel as though I have come to a fork in the road in my life and I don't know which path to go down.
This morning I received a phone call from a friend in the ward. She proceeded to tell me about how she was talking about me to another lady she knew about how much I love to dance and how I should open up a dance studio... even just out of my home. I didn't even know that she knew I loved to dance. I don't ever recall even talking to her about this. My whole life long dream was to teach dance to little kids. A couple of months ago, I was deciding what I should go back to school for. I thought, "Do I be realistic and get a degree that I know I can make money from 'just in case.' OR do I go back to school for something that I love?" I decided to go back to school for something that I love, to be a dance teacher. And as soon as I made that decision I second-guessed myself..... I just kept thinking, "Who needs dance teachers? There is NO demand for this." That day, my brother sent me a message saying that there was a job opening for a dance instructor in Salt Lake. His response, "See Janna! It is needed!" Back to the phone call...... all she kept saying to me was, "There is SUCH a demand for dance teachers out here and we think that you should do it. I can personally tell you about 30 people who are interested!"
So, here's where my road forks. Down one path, I have an amazing opportunity to continue on with school (which I have wanted to do for YEARS) and have a potentially AWESOME opportunity to open a dance studio and to do what I love.
The other path, my family. It's no shock to anyone out here that I have all of the sudden got the baby bug. I haven't wanted another baby in SO long. I have had NO desire to. And then I move to Reno and all that changes. But there is no way to have it all!!!
So, I sit here, at the cross roads, wondering which path to take. Trying with everything I have to trust that the Lord will guide me! Wow! Just when I thought life would finally start to slow down for me... the Lord throws another fork in the road!!
End of August
7 months ago


3 comments:
follow your heart. I love you, mE
I personally think you can have it all. You are a very outgoing, energetic, positive person, so I think if you wanted to finish school and teach dance with a bun in the oven you, of all people, could pull it off.
Nice picture....
I like this blog....
thanks a lot...
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